Happy Mother's Day

For the past month or so, I have felt this building up. People talking about Mother's Day, advertisements about it, and so on. Ellie was watching the TV with me the other night and an advertisement about it came on. She was so cute, she said "They said 'Mom's Day', that means Mother's Day is coming up. I guess we need to buy you a gift!" She is so aware of gifts and gift giving occasions. I think her main Love Language has got to be gift giving.

This week has been really hard for me. I can't help but go back to that day a year ago. I can't help but remember my last Mother's Day. I can't help being sad. I am drained of energy and have no motivation to do anything at all. I guess this is normal, but I feel much like I did after it happened. Still in shock and kind of numb.

We are keeping the day quiet this year. We are not going to church, a decision which was cemented when Corey announced that he was doing a special Mother's Day sermon last Sunday. Instead, we are going on a trip. I think we are all looking forward to some time away. I know Lynn and I are. So, we will be out of town for the day. I plan on making some happy memories for the day, and I hope my sisters are too.

So, if any of you still read this, please know that I wish for you a happy Mother's Day, even though I know that you will be sad, as I will be too. I love you all, and will be thinking about you too.