What new (and maybe even unexpected) strengths have you noticed about yourself that have arisen from your loss of a loved one or other difficult challenge in your life?
Really with all that has gone on in the last 18 months or so, I have come to such a deeper dependence on God. I have gained a confidence that all thing will work together for my good. I have become more grateful for just life in general.
Mom's death was so devastating to me, and sometimes it still is, but I know that I know that I know that God was in control the day she died, every day before, and every day since. That enables me to get through each day. I don't know what I would be like if I didn't have that knowledge. I also know that He is with me every step of the way and that I don't have to do it all myself.
To some, it may seem a weakness to say I depend on God more, but I really think it is a strength, because His Word says, "I can do all things through him who strengthens, me." Philippians 4:13 Only by my complete dependence on Him, can I do anything. When I don't think I can get through the day, I will pray and God will come near and give me the strength to do what needs to be done.
I am learning, that to live in the moment is sometimes the only way to make it through. If I think about yesterday too much I am overwhelmed by grief and sadness. If I think about tomorrow too much, I can be overcome with anxiety and worry. But, if I concentrate on today, I can experience all that it has to offer. I can listen to my children giggle and truly be happy and thankful for that moment. I can deal with bad attitudes and reluctance to obey, knowing that this season of life is just that, a season, and I will get through it.
So I guess that my answer to this question, is I don't know if I personally have gotten any stronger, but my dependence on God has become more deep, and He is the only strength I need.
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