Random Thoughts

At GreifShare last week they described greif as an unwanted houseguest, and it is, I think, a really apt description. Every time I think that things are getting better, the unwanted houseguest comes back, and I can't seem to get rid of it.

I've been thinking of Mom a lot lately, and grief and the weird things it does. Watching Miles grow and turn two is so amazing, he is so different from what Ellie was like at that age. She didn't push boundaries quite as hard as Miles does, and seemed to understand more too. Of course I had a six month old baby when she turned two, and was a bit more distracted too, so God knew what He was doing. :)

Nichole left a comment about how Mom didn't like the term "terrible twos", but instead called it the "terrific twos". She did love two year olds, and sometimes it hurts so much that she can't see Miles growing like he is. She would have enjoyed it so much.


I talked for a long time last night with a friend whose father died a couple of weeks ago. It is nice to be able to talk to someone who understands what I'm going through, and maybe help her a little along this journey too.

We are having friends over for Birthday Cake and ice cream this afternoon after church. It should be fun. I made Miles a cake and got those hard sugar type decorations shaped like construction vehicles - there are trucks, a cement truck and a back hoe - to put on it. It turned out cute, but very amateur, of course. He has already tried to taste it. I think if we gave him is own cake this year, we would have vastly different results than we did for his first birthday. He just poked at it then.